A Rush of Self-Loathing
Dave Winer on his thousandth day of not smoking: “I do occasionally miss it, but not in a literal sense. I can't stand the smell of cigarette smoke and if I took a drag on a cigarette I'd choke, for sure. What I miss is the high, and the pain. It's when I feel a rush of self-loathing that I wish I could light up. I think we all have moments when we don't like ourselves very much. A smoke is the perfect companion for that feeling.”
In general what Dave writes about smoking seems to apply to any unhealthy addiction we have (which are all addictions except love). He seems to understand that self-loathing itself can be addictive, and that finally getting that "hit" satisfies the "urge" some of us have to self-loath. The easy part of stopping is deciding to stop, but as with anything, the hardest part is getting into the habit of not doing it. Dave (and a friend of mine) are doing both, that is, quitting smoking, which is way more difficult and inspirational than temporarily ceasing drinking colas.
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Julie (not verified)
Fri, 2005-03-11 11:58
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Thanks for highlighting Dave'
richard (not verified)
Fri, 2005-03-11 12:21
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When I finally quit smoking f